Life-changing moments

Thank God for irrational, embodied heart-based decisions. During my Experience Week in October 2003, that day when we go to Randolph’s Leap, I sat, in deep contemplative thought, on the rock overlooking the stream pool where the two rivers meet. It had just rained. The sun broke through the autumn-coloured beech trees surrounding the river banks, sending out the most amazing glittery prismatic light over the landscape. As if that was not enough, grasping in beauty-stricken awe, I was additionally blessed by a big salmon jumping high out of the middle of the pool to swirl its pirouettes creating an even more magical moment. Time stopped, I just melted right there and promised that salmon I would come back. I came back three months later.

The Foundation Program, spring 2004 included a retreat week on the Isle of Erraid. Once again, the earth-channel spoke to me, helping with my next big decision. Every day during that week I met dying or dead animals. First a sheep that died in my lap, then a frog caught up during artichoke harvest, then the cat brought a dead mouse to my door, a little dead bird at the stairs of the out-door toilet and finally a gorgeous white seabird, with a broken neck and its vast wings stretched out on the beach.

I did not get it right away, but as I was sitting on the wishing stone during the last day, just staring into the horizon reflecting over the week, a strange absorption process started. It was as if the stone itself absorbed my energy and wanted to communicate with me. I have a kinaesthetic high sense perception, and this strange energetically profound process with the stone took several hours as energy and information flowed between us, so intense I could not move. Finally, after a long while, the answer came from a voice within, the stone and me: “It is okey Micaela to let your old life die, a new one is waiting for you.”  The salmon and the wishing stone broke through any personality barriers and instigated my journey with the transformative field we call Findhorn.

It took four more years before I became a member. Initially, I chose to stay in the wider community allowing my intuition to guide me. What drew me was the shamanic path, later the Ageless Wisdoms, healing modalities and seeking a deeper comprehension of the mind-body-spirit dance.

Some of the inner revelations included: an intense in-life near death experience, a lightning rod penetrating my whole being, transportation to Sirius, telepathic communication with Source and kundalini energy awakening. This intense period eventually resulted in a nearly 2,5 years of solitary retreat back and beyond in my native Finland. For a while I became too electric, the changes in my field were just too dramatic and demanding to be around folks. Loads of meditation, study into the perennial wisdom traditions in order to understand, integrate and adjust the changes. Maybe I was a ripe fruit for spirit to pick, remember and transform. It felt as if I had been put on a fast-track path. For decades prior, the interest in spirituality, mainly Buddhism, had gone hand in hand with ordinary life, work and single motherhood. Some would call this character building, and in some sense it was. Eventually the soul prompted: “When are you going to take this seriously, you are meant to, so don’t waste any more time.” And so, I did and have no regrets whatsoever, even though I lost my standing in society, my home and my financial security. The inner rewards cannot be measured. After the retreat time and as my aura and electromagnetic field found some balance again, I returned and served the Foundation for the next eight years.

So very grateful for the holding space, the inspiration and learnings the community offered. The mirrors and love of fellow travelers, all the many challenges of this human laboratory of consciousness, the many nationalities, the support available when in the midst of some purifying deep dive, the attunements, meditations and sacred spaces, the singing and dancing, the deep friendships as well as a gratitude for the beautiful, spirited landscape.

The two-year process leading up to the Christ Consciousness Conference in 2012 was important for me. Being part of this intense learning journey with a most wonderful group, healing and bringing back Limitless Love & Light, honoring the original esoteric roots of the Foundation has stayed with me as a cherished highlight. Thank you, Gillian, Andrew, Janice, Katherina, Sylvia and Monica. My many visits to Iona also have a special place in my heart.

I became a sort of “cosmic plumber”, belonging to a group of souls ever clearing out the debris of trauma/karma for the collective preparing the new, an unseen service function of sorts. Not necessarily the most glamorous job, as it entails occasional pain in the body, absorbing bad smelling energy and spitting it out after it has passed through my heart center and been purified, but hey someone’s got to do it. Eighteen years later I’m still at it, turns out it is a gift!

Thank you!……

Micaela Aminoff