What I didn’t say is how sad I was
What I didn’t say was how bereft I felt
What I didn’t say was this was a death

What I didn’t say was this was the death of a dream
What I didn’t say was how lonely I felt
What I didn’t say was why weren’t you sad?

What I didn’t say was how much you meant to me
What I didn’t say was how I put off seeing you
What I didn’t say was I thought you would always be there

What I didn’t say was how much I believed in you
What I didn’t say was thank you enough
What I didn’t say was how much I loved you

What I remember is a dream of love
What I remember is your vitality and kindness
What I remember is the way we blessed each other

What I remember is the deep quiet we shared
What I remember is how inspired I was
What I remember is birth and joy and feeling at home

What I remember is the healing of my heart and mind
What I remember is feeling accepted as myself
What I remember is life expanding in beautiful dimensions

What I remember is playfulness and dancing
What I remember is deep meditation with you
What I remember is deep conversation with you

What I remember is walking in the wind
What I remember is bountiful gardens
What I remember is learning how to trust

What I remember is the vision of communion
What I remember is a more loving world
What I remember is God at the heart of it

What I know now is blessings are still with me
What I know now is that love is who I am
What I know now is community keeps expanding

What I know now is everything changes
What I know now is that gifts keep emerging
What I know now is death is not the end of love

What I know now is there is something after death
What I know now is I can create a beautiful dream
What I know now is that I keep growing

What I know now is you are still part of my growing
What I know now is we are all here for growing life
What I know now is that Life is bigger than any form

What I give thanks for is this amazing journey
What I give thanks for is love ever growing
What I give thanks for is this dream now

What I give thanks for is your blessing on my journey
What I give thanks for is you giving me a home
What I give thanks for is you loving me

What I give thanks for is your belief in me
What I give thanks for is I am part of you
What I give thanks for is the truth and light you ever are

What I look forward to is seeing how you will find new form
What I look forward to is your spirit growing stronger in the world
What I look forward to is going beyond my limited ideas of who you are

What I look forward to is making more room for joy
What I look forward to is trusting the flow
What I look forward to is the whole world choosing love

What I look forward to is blessing and blessings
What I look forward to is communing with you in my heart
What I look forward to enjoying this, this, and this now

I say thank you
I say I love you
I say healing
I say beauty
I say wholeness
I say whole-heartedness
I say blessing
I say Love and Truth
I say All is Well.

by Marcia Rutan (29th July 2023)
this was written following the Announcement by the Findhorn Foundation