BEING HERE

As I look back on 2011, I realise I’ve spent half of this year here at Findhorn. So it’s no wonder I feel sad as I prepare to leave this place that I’ve come to call home. Back in August, it was exactly where I needed to land after two months of crying almost daily and having suicidal urges.

Youth Project group 2006

This place felt familiar, as the spirits of the land and the people embraced me with open hearts. I knew immediately that I needed to be here longer than the two weeks I had initially planned for. From Experience Week, I went on to do ECL (Exploring Community Life), LCG (Living in Community Guest) and finally the LEAP programme (Living Essentials Apprenticeship Programme) spending all but one week in Park Garden.

I have sweet memories of playing in the gardens with humans and nature spirits, sharing music, living with wonderful folks and attending a grief ritual. I appreciate all the space and time I was given to heal in the land of my Scottish ancestors. For the past year and a half, I have been on a mission, called Sing as I am, with the intention to fall more deeply in love with myself. I have chosen to live home-free, travel around the world, share music and truth and write about my healing journey. I was on my way to India when spirit stopped me here at Findhorn, a place where I’ve met many other spiritual seekers who also come here for rest and renewal.

Cullerne Garden jam making 2011

I have so much gratitude to the Findhorn Community for its commitment to shine light into the universe, as it has done directly into my heart for the past six months. I’ve left some songs scattered in the hearts of the community. As I continue on my life’s journey, I carry the angel of Love with me.

Blessed be.

Julie Dragonfly