The first time I had heard about Findhorn was at medical school from a flat mate, who had been to the Findhorn Foundation Community before starting to study. We even played the Transformation Game one New Year’s Eve.

In 1999 I had planned to travel together with a friend to Norway in Summer. “If you want to make God laugh, tell Her your plans.” When the friend could not come to Norway with me, I decided to take a train journey through the U.K., all the way up to Inverness. I visited the Findhorn Foundation Community for one day. By synchronicity there was an Ecstatic Dance class with live music in the Universal Hall that afternoon and I participated. To this day I vividly remember the sense of humour of the dance teacher; he said, as we – maybe 108 people – were standing in a circle around the Hall: “You know, in Findhorn we all share, how we are feeling; in honour of this tradition we are now going to say our name in the way how we feel, all simultaneously.” That day I took a guest brochure with me, which moved with me a few times.

In 2003 an elderly patient, whom I visited at home regularly, gave me a little book called “The White Sail”, which was about living your dream. In the book it was depicted as if living your dream was so easy, that I thought, it can’t be that easy, but at least it gave me the impetus to give it a try. Consequently, I booked Experience Week and Life Purpose Week with the Findhorn Foundation.

In Spring 2004 I returned for the Healing Conference. Towards the end I was very sad about my impending departure, whilst standing under the blossoming cherry tree in front of the Park Building it occurred to me that I could actually live in the Community, as it was very clear, this is my hOMe.

Nevertheless, doubts set in and I felt too little back up for such a giant step that I developed severe back ache, which lifted the minute I was back at the Findhorn Foundation for 4 weeks in the Living in Community Guest (LCG) programme in Summer 2004. I even turned the compost at Cullerne Gardens with ease. I had come with the intention to make a decision. The Cullerne Focaliser was also a carer for Eileen Caddy and informed us that she wasn’t well and might transition into the Light soon. I was inspired to ask the Findhorn Gardens to support Eileen. That was such a splendid experience, I felt a vast wave of LOVE from the Findhorn Gardens for Eileen. Connecting with her in my heart I heard her calling me to Findhorn, knowing it was my free choice. Therefore, I decided to move to the Community.

It still took over a year and honing all my splendid, super-efficient organisational talent. I deeply resonated with Nietzsche’s observation “Acquire what you inherited from your ancestors in order to own it.” A colleague once praised my father’s organisational skills, adding “and they stand right beside you” meaning my mother.

Finally in 2005 I arrived to live at the Findhorn Foundation Community.