I think there is within each of us, an individual recognition of what might be called ‘Truth’ which resonates when we meet it. We are all so completely independent of each other that what I’m writing now may mean nothing or everything to someone reading it.

I had always felt something vital was missing from my life which, as a very sensitive girl, I could never find when attending my childhood to adolescent years of school and church. I was baptised into the Church of England as a baby and later confirmed and in my instinctive search, I attended communion every Sunday, having ‘vowed’ never to miss it. However, the question of ‘sin’ and ‘forgiveness’ always remained an enigma. As a child I tried so hard always to ‘be good’ and the view of us all as sinful confused me. Of course, I had no idea of all the deep shelves of ignorance I had living within me and saw only daily actions as something I would perhaps be able to change.

For me, Darwin’s nevertheless brilliant research into what makes up the natural world, unfortunately led to so many ‘damning’ conclusions, which have been accepted and made certain science; this has caused the earth and all that is alive on it, including human and animals, plants and all life to be “dissectible, weighable and countable” like dead things … and has lost what is the most vital quality: LIFE as it originally IS.

It was after several painful episodes in my life, that at age 38 a man friend gave me Rudolf Steiner’s “Luke The Gospel of Love and Compassion”.

I am now 82 years old and that first book of lectures by Dr Steiner led me, always full of gratitude, through to a life of spiritual wealth. This continued not only in my training as a Waldorf Class Teacher, teaching in the South West London Waldorf School and then to Findhorn where the Steiner School took its first steps but I found love for my students which is still with me; I also experienced deep confirmation of how a child can unfold and root into the truth of their core self. This continues to nurture all that was calling for answers in me since I was a child. I realise that in teaching in that way, I was attempting to heal and see in the children, all that I had missed in my school days.

I cannot even attempt to describe the incredible importance of Anthropos- (human) -Sophia (wisdom) in my life. Findhorn, where an active questing with and for the Spirit permeated Eileen, Peter (who also knew of Rosicrucian teachings) and Dorothy’s daily life, is the fertile ground for Sophia (wisdom) to enhance that Love which caused our world and all earthly life to be created.