For me miracles are things I couldn’t even have imagined possible, as well as coincidences or synchronicities I couldn’t have anticipated.

Since my move to the Findhorn Foundation Community in Autumn 2005 major MIRACLES have happened in my LIFE.

TreePeace
In 2007 my Life literally turned upside down on the static trapeze. At school I had brilliant marks in all subjects except for sports. I was scared of heights in general, and of bars in gymnastics. Therefore, when I had the vision of me on a trapeze high up in the centre of a large circus tent, I thought this was science fiction or symbolism. However, a year later the new guy in the dance class asked me, if he could put up a trapeze here in the Universal Hall in Findhorn, adding, he could teach me; and he did. So I learnt static trapeze age 40, mainly outside in trees, often in Cluny Garden, finding TreePeace.

Archer on TreePeace

Coming alive as a Clown
The serious little girl even became both a Clown and a trainer in Laughter Yoga. In the Summer 2009 I received a letter from Patch Adams, the very first Clown Doctor, in a very miraculous way: Patch had written to someone in the Findhorn Foundation Community offering to return to Findhorn where he had been a conference presenter several times in the 1990s. The person who had received the letter, could not think of anyone to organise an event for him and had binned the letter. When that person met me in the Hot Tub, it occurred to him “You are made of the same wood”. Therefore he pulled the letter out from his wastepaper basket and gave me Patch Adams` address. Ever since then I have been exchanging handwritten letters with Patch and in 2011 I invited him back to give a workshop at Findhorn on his 65th birthday. Another coincidence as he had celebrated his 50th with the Community during a Medical Marriage conference in 1996.

In 2016 I went on a Clown trip with Patch to Russia; I would say the most courageous thing I have done in my Life so far. As a Clown on my own in a children’s hospital, not speaking the language I felt very exposed but miraculously managed to connect so deeply with those kids, that I was blown away by the experience.

Meeting my Twin Flame
Through the unlikely path of a pen friendship with a man on Death row I found my Twin Flame. In a world totally alien to anything I had ever experienced before, I found such a deep connection and a love that embraces all of humanity bridging worlds that are radically different all in social, cultural, and religious dimensions. I had been very naive as I had never had a TV, never seen any prison movie so all I thought when starting the pen-friendship was “I like writing letters”, what a good thing I do!

My Power Animal – the Horse
Because my aunt had a horse which she could not afford and the family had to subsidise it, I grew up with the message “Horse is taboo”, yet in miraculous ways my Power Animal HORSE entered my Life. When I lent money to a friend for her to buy herself a horse, the contract said I had the choice between getting my money back or receiving a foal. Because I was, and still am, convinced that training a young horse will be the best resocialisation therapy for my Twin Flame when coming free, I chose the foal in 2009.

Dutchess and Almut laughing

One motto in the Findhorn Foundation Community is “Expect a MIRACLE!”. My Twin Flame and I still trust that by God´s grace we will live our LOVE together in freedom; we certainly expect a MIRACLE.
In 2008 my Power Animal supported me to face my fears and get back on horseback after having been kicked by a horse in 2006. Shortly after, I started taking riding lessons regularly. Eventually I moved the colt, the universe had very unexpectedly bred for me, from Germany to Scotland in 2014, my Soul horse, born on Patch Adams´ birthday and therefore called Gelio = “laughter” in ancient Greek.

The Himalayas and Tibet
I feel a deep pastlife connection to Tibet. In 2009 I went on a pilgrimage with Kajedo around the Annapurnas in the Himalayas; returning with the question, “how do I serve the world best?”.
Only much later I realised that I had started the pen friendship with my Twin Flame just a few weeks after that.

In 2014 I made my own way to Nepal and went to Tibet with a shaman on a pilgrimage.
Because I hold the vision of living in a free Tibet, I decided in 2016 to study the Tibetan language, and started a nourishing connection with Samye Ling, the extraordinary Tibetan Buddhist monastery in the Scottish Borders.

Renata Caddy’s book describing her trips with Peter to India brought Babaji into my awareness and I felt called by Babaji to His Ashram in Haidakhan at the foot of the Himalayas. From 2017 I travelled every year to spend time in his ashram. As a sacred rebirth ritual, called Mundan, in the sacred river I even had my long hair shaved off. I felt like a new-born chick, very tender.

In preparation for singing for the Indian evening during the Sacred Dance Festival of the Findhorn Foundation 2019 I kept listening and watching Amma (the hugging saint from India) singing a Kali song. Amma then appeared in my dream on the Dalai Lama´s birthday in 2019, asking me to attend spiritual teachings at the weekends; as it happens there is a Thich Nhat Hanh sangha on Saturdays which I attended from that very day on.

In 2019 at Babaji´s Haidakhan Ashram I dreamed I would move at the end of January. In the dream I did not know which year that would be. I had an interview with a GP practice in Germany in January 2020 and on the strength of that dream could tell them with confidence that I would move at the end of January 2021 and join the practice in February 2021. Without Babaji´s dream I would never have had the courage to move internationally at the very beginning of Brexit and at the peak of Karuna (means COMPASSION in Sanskrit, therefore I use Karuna for the corona virus pandemic). That this tightrope-act move went gracefully, was a huge MIRACLE.

Miracles don’t end there
What an amazing GRACE that I was back in Germany and in the efficient German healthcare system when I was diagnosed with a benign brain tumour in Autumn 2022; this resulted in a true rebirth, how fitting, as my middle name is Renate meaning “reborn”. I continue to experience in this lifetime unknown aspects of myself.

To put it in a nutshell, the miracles in Findhorn opened whole new facets to my self-image, totally new perspectives on who I thought I was. And this process continues …

Hanging from the beech tree at Cluny